I sit by the window

in the silence

of the night.

Looking at the lights.

The traffic passing by.

The hawkers walking back

after a long day's work.

The homeless in their homes

quietly embracing the darkness

and each other.

The leaves in the trees

rustling soundlessly,

sharing their secrets.

 But I can't hear it all.

                                 I can't hear the tap drip.

                                 I can't hear the nightbirds sing.

                                 I can't hear the night.

                                 I can't hear my own breathing.

                                 I can't hear my life in me

                                 or any other.

                                 I've let the silence

                                 The lull

                                 engulf me

                                 and submerge me

                                 in totality.

                                 And I wait.

I wait for you

to come with silent steps.

To embrace me

in a wordless embrace.

To hold me

and to be able to hear my longing

for you.

To touch my love

which is waiting to be given.

For all too long.

                                 My love

                                 Has receded into a silent alcove

                                 of its own.

                                 Scared of noise

                                 and disturbance.

                                 It just wants to lie

                                 still in the

                                 eternal dark night.

                                 And not move.

                                 But not die.

Only pulse slightly

with a small life force.

It wants to lie still

until it is claimed

as its own.

and embraced in your

arms and your heart. 

Then it will grow

in to a live being.

And let itself envelope

my world.

It will consume me

And you

And our world.

                                 But until then,

                                 It'll lie low.

                                 And not let me

                                 Hear the life in its veins.

For I am silent tonight.

And I let the silence engulf me.